Hello beautiful people!
A few weeks ago, my aunt ordered a textbook that I needed for this semester (that cost an arm and three legs, but I digress…) off on Amazon. Attempting to save a few bucks, she didn’t order a new copy with Prime availability, choosing instead to use one of their authorized resellers and purchase a “like new” copy.
I waited for that textbook…and I waited…a week passed and then two, I had already had the first session of the class, and right as I sent my aunt an email saying “this book never showed up”, there it was…waiting on me at the do’.
I’ve been thinking a lot this week about endurance.
This could be for many different reasons. One, because my night classes started this week after being postponed due to the weather. Not thinking about the fact that these teachers had to make up for lost time just like we did in the classroom, I expected a run of the mill easy first week in all of my classes. I figured we’d introduce ourselves, go through the familiar litany of name-major-life goals, have the syllabus that was already posted online read to us in minute detail (grrr), and that would be it! Right?
These teachers meant business. I walked out of all of my classes with reading assignments, discussion posts, and prompts for papers. Sigh…endurance definitely needed there.
But I am also thinking about endurance because I am beginning to see the manifestation of some things that I’ve been praying for during and after this fast season that I went through. Fasting is a time where we consciously take a step back from all the things that we let distract us and take up time that we could be using to get closer to God; basically saying that our flesh and impulsivity doesn’t rule us. We use that time to pray, to study, to worship, and miracles happen when we pursue God with that single-mindedness.
Sometimes, the things that we pray for with that intensity show up almost instantly. We see God move and it provides this charge like “You do see me…You hear me!” but sometimes we pray…and we wait…and we wait. Then, we wait some more.
I’m not ashamed to say that I have become frustrated with waiting, y’all—for that man, for that job opportunity, for that “whatever it is” that I have prayed for. And I have also been guilty of saying “forget it!” and attempting to bring about what I asked God for under my own strength, and without fail, one of two things happens:
- I mess it up.
- I spend precious time and energy stressing and worrying over something that wasn’t mine to shoulder.
There are something like 53 different scriptures in the Bible that talk about God’s timing, but one of my favorite comes from Habakkuk 2:3:
For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.
There is so much GOODNESS in that verse, man! There is the fact that the vision–that move from God, that situation that you have been praying on is waiting–it is there! There is a reassurance for if it seems slow to come…God already knew we’d wonder what the holdup was. There is even the reinforcement of “surely”. God is like I said it and I MEANT it.
I prayed during the fast for several things, some of which I have seen come to pass. The school I work for had it’s contract renewed, and family members who were dealing with various health issues are seeing lights at the end of the tunnel. But there are things that I have been praying for since long before the fast that haven’t shown any sign of changing. The temptation is there for me to go out and solve these things myself. The difference (after learning the hard way sometimes) is that I know enough about the God I serve to wait for Him to move–knowing that what He brings to pass will be for my good in a way that nothing that I engineered on my own could be.
Try your best to endure…know that you are loved by a God that imbues everything and everyone with a purpose and seeks to align our lives so that that purpose is made clear.
He has made everything beautiful in it’s time…Ecclesiastes 3:11